My Month of Firsts
Another month of silence in my blog. But honestly, I’m OK with it this time. I had such a big month in March as it will now be known as my Month of Firsts.
I launched my very first online course.
And let me say, that was an experience no one can ever prepare you for. I read articles, worked through the process with my accountability partner Gennia, followed the launch expert’s advice and used their downloadable worksheets. I typed up master lists and planned every action item down to the final ‘Thanks for Being Here’ email copy.
It was a massive undertaking. I’ve launched new products before but this was the biggest thing I’ve ever done in my almost 16 years in business.
All that planning helped me stay organized but it didn’t prepare me for the emotional roller coaster I’d go on. There is something to be said for putting yourself out there with the personal posts that I write in this blog but it’s another thing to create a program and try to teach others to follow along with your way of thinking.
Every time I uploaded my tutorial videos and hit the publish button, I cringed. I would post a notice in our private Facebook group to view the video and there would always be silence.
Then I’d spend hours wondering “what were they thinking?” and “do they hate these videos?” which would just turn into, “they think they wasted their money, they don’t get this and now I’m going to be flooded with emails asking for their money back.”
By the time I finished my internal rant, I was convinced they hated me. They were going to say crappy things about me on social media and I’d look like an idiot who didn’t know what she was doing.
My Sally Field Moment
But they didn’t hate me.
They loved the information I was teaching them. They jumped into the Facebook group to share their homework projects. They helped each other with suggestions and gave each other feedback on their work.
And they got it. They understood the process. They thanked me for making them push past their comfort box and do something to help their businesses.
They got me.
I felt like Sally Field making her acceptance speech for the 1984 Oscar for the movie Places in the Heart. I wanted to post up the words from her speech:
I haven’t had an orthodox career and I’ve wanted more than anything to have your respect. The first time I didn’t feel it, but this time I feel it, and I can’t deny the fact that you like me, right now, you really like me!
I’d ride that high for a few days until I posted up my next video. And down I’d go again.
It was tough to put myself out there and be vulnerable. I felt like I spent the month of March in an anxious panic mode. My words, ideas and even my personal story were out there and all I could do was to keep pushing through.
They had paid their money and were expecting a 4 week online course. There was no way I could allow my up and down emotions to stop this train.
It was certainly a month of firsts:
- My first online course launched.
- My first time sharing videos teaching my weekly lessons.
- I felt exposed – my first time of feeling truly vulnerable in my business.
- It certainly wasn’t my first roller coaster ride but it was the first time I received real feedback, real immediate results and real validation that I taught them something.
- It was my first moment of finding what they call “My People” – the people who really got me, understood my way of thinking and wanted to learn more.
Throughout this process, I kept going back to this quote I read from Brené Brown:
Daring greatly is being brave and afraid every minute of the day at the exact same time. ― Brené Brown, Daring Greatly
The words Daring Greatly actually refer to Brené Brown’s book. When I went to find more information about the book online, I stumbled across an article where Brown talks about where she found that phrase.
It was from a speech from Theodore Roosevelt. When I read the words, I got it.
“It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.”
It has truly been my month of knowing that place Roosevelt talked about. It was my month of learning how to dare greatly.