School has begun, again
I can’t believe that summer is over and my son Jake started 5th grade this week. It felt like I was just writing to you all about my Summer of Getting It Done, I blinked and now I’m back to sitting in the school carline.
So did I have a productive summer or did I end up like 2013, with that feeling of productive dissatisfaction?
Honestly, I didn’t get as much done as I wanted but there’s probably a good chance that I put more pressure on myself than I should. This summer I was able to work, write and think about the authentic journey I’m on.
And I slept.
The alarm clock went off sometime after the sun had been up. And some days, I laid in bed for awhile and just thought about what I was going to do that day. Overall, I probably lost some hours in my work week from new morning routine but I felt good. I felt strong.
And I’m convinced that my productivity of the summer was directly connected to the increase in sleeping.
Even my friend and accountability partner Gennia noticed the change. At one of our meetings, she asked me how I got all this stuff done over the summer. She said, “Every time you send me your weekly check-in list, you’re on to the next step, the next project and launching the next thing. How do you do that?”
Since she’s my friend, I couldn’t give her that BS answer, “Oh, I just love my work. I love to get up and fill my days with making all this great stuff to share with others.” That would just make her laugh. She knows me better than that.
So I told her my truth. I said, “Most days, I feel like a shark. You know how they say that sharks need to keep moving, keep swimming to breathe or they die? I’m like a shark. I need to keep moving, creating, working or I’ll die.”
Our first week of school
Now school has started and the alarm clock goes off just as the sun is coming up. It’s been a week of feeling tired. And I’m having all these *tired* conversations.
Like with the TV remote – I’m really tired of you deciding when you’ll work. Please stop.
To one of my clients – I’m tired of the delays. Just let me know what you want and please stop the back and forth emails.
To Jake – I’m tired of this new behavior of yours (actually, it’s a re-worked behavior of not listening). Please stop.
As we reached the end of this long week, I’m just plain tired.
I’ve gone back to losing hours in my work week with the school pickup schedule but in a weird way, it was actually OK. I learned how to streamline my shark-like productivity skills. I can still get more done with less hours.
It’s just harder to concentrate because of being so, well, you know, tired.
When I took a break away from my desk for lunch on Wednesday, it took all my strength to go back to my laptop. It would have been so easy to crawl into bed and watch the HGTV Buying and Selling marathon with those twins Drew and Jonathon.
I mean, seriously, how cute are these guys? I could have watched them host home improvement shows and clicked around on Pinterest for the rest of the day.
But I didn’t because I’m a shark. And sharks need to keep moving to keep breathing. And no one likes to be around a dead shark.