How Circles Become Spirals

My circle obession

For some odd reason this year, I’ve become obsessed with circles. I see them everywhere.

They popped up in some artwork inspiration for one of my big projects I’m working on this summer:

people in circles

 

And then I caught myself creating more circles as I was working on one of the elements (creating a my company’s vision board) for my online eclass:

ISM color palette

And the last thing I posted, was an old post about Being Human from a couple of years ago. It was something I’d written back in 2012 but when I read it, I felt connected to the words again. Like I had circled back around.

It felt familiar but in a different way. Like the feeling you get when you drive past the old house you were raised in. You can remember being in that house, the way it felt, where you slept and the rooms you played in.

You feel a connection to that house but yet it’s different. Because you’re different.

I’ve gone full circle

When I finally logged into WordPress today, I realized that it’s been almost a month since I posted anything. I’ve been blogging here for over 4 years and except for the first year, I’ve rarely gone more than a week without a post.

I’ve scribbled some notes during this past month, but I couldn’t get myself to type it all out in a blog post. Every time I’d pull up a blank page, I’d stare it for a few minutes until I decided to work on something else.

Mostly this past month, I needed to step back and breathe. I needed to create a self-imposed world of silence. I needed to make everything stop and give me time to sort through this journey I had experienced.

And that silence brought me clarity. I realized that I had finally learned to slow down. Not just all the crazy busy work I was doing or the legal crap I’m still going through with Jake’s dad but slow down the thoughts in my head.

I found that I appreciated and even looked forward to those moments of silence.

The silence from the days when Jake goes to his Dad’s. I began to enjoy the idea that I didn’t have to talk to anyone. I could go for days without speaking, unless I wanted to have a random conversation with someone like the cashier at the grocery store.

In the silence, I learned to quiet my mind.

Circles become spirals

I began to see how the circle was just a part of this authentic journey of finding myself. I circled back around to my old house but not just the place where I started, but a different place.

The idea of a different place made my thoughts shift. Maybe this was more like a spiral – and maybe I really had started in the middle and I’ve moved around the curve. Slowing sliding around the outside of the curve, with it’s twists and turns but always circling back around and around.

blue spiral

The definition of a spiral

When I looked up the definition of a spiral, I found these words:

A curve which starts from a central point, getting progressively further away as it revolves around a point.

More spiral research came up with this information:

The spiral symbol can represent the path leading from outer consciousness (materialism, external awareness, ego, outward perception) to the inner soul (enlightenment, unseen essence, nirvana, cosmic awareness).

And the Symbolic Spiral Meanings included:

  • Balance
  • Progress
  • Direction
  • Initiation
  • Centering
  • Expansion
  • Awareness
  • Connection
  • Journeying
  • Development

Looking over that list, I felt an awareness of what has been happening. I wasn’t just circling around and landing back in the same place. I was spiraling around the curve.

I’ve been spiraling and falling apart …  and it feels fantastic.

we're falling apart brene brown

 

 

 

 

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14 thoughts on “How Circles Become Spirals

    • It took me awhile to process it too. I think I still am trying to sort through everything. I’m trying to get back on track with the writing, and yes, saw your email, so I’ll get back to you when I can.

  1. Oh! I’m so glad that you’ve found the connection to the circles and can see the spiral!! That’s awesome! I hate that you are still battling the ex, but happy that you are finding balance and awareness! I find that the quiet is a wonderful place for me to visit sometimes, and I’m glad you are enjoying it!

    • Yeah the meaning of the spiral really pulled it all together for me. It was an ah-ha moment. And I’m still creating those moments of silence. It’s become a part of me finding that place of peace.

  2. Finding those connections, opposed to the alternative is what it’s all about. When you sit back and think “why is this or that happening and what can I do to change?” is the gateway to peace of mind. Keep trudging forward!
    By the way I LOVE that first photo, the color palate and everything about your board!

    • I knew that you would totally get this. I’m still processing things but I feel like I turned a corner here.
      Glad you liked my images! I’m so excited about my new project – give me a little more time and I’ll share more with everyone.

  3. Would you say your situation might be akin to a ‘Blogger’s block’? When you think of what was in the background of your inability to blog, what do you see?
    Shakti

    • It was much more than writer’s block. I’ve had a bad case of that before and this one felt different. Good question but this one felt like a real shift.

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