Yeah, I know
Silence is golden … except when it comes to a blog.
As of yesterday, I wrapped up the last of the big projects on my plate. I’m hoping to get back into my blogging schedule and post all the stuff I’ve scribbled in my writing notebook these past few weeks. Lots of good stuff to share including some cooking experiments that I tried out.
A Springing of the Break
Last week was my son Jake’s Spring Break. In between squeezing in work projects, we did some fun stuff. There were a couple of days of hanging out at home and going to the pool. And there there was a day of this:
And then I got a day to be with my friend Gennia at the beach. We did a closing out ceremony for First Quarter. Kind of like the Do Nothing Day we did in December when we closed out the year.
Honestly, it was probably more about getting out of our offices and away from our laptops. But it felt good to get out to the beach and breath in the salt air.
Are we having fun yet?
Even though we were on Spring Break, the legal battle continues on. I’ve worn out my Google search on my phone to look up the new legal terms that were thrown at me.
And there have been calls with my lawyer and constant email communication. I already have more emails in my court case folder than I do for the last client project I worked on. Back and forth and back forth we go.
So here’s where we are now:
Some Quiet Moments
In between the little bit of this and a little bit of that, I had some quiet moments. I realized that my last post – What I Found – was one of those messages I’m always looking for in my life.
When all those papers fell on the floor, it was a sign to stop and remember what this was all about. I had a moment that day when I sat on the floor to look at Jake’s old artwork. It happened to remind me that the most important part of all of this is JAKE.
If you spend any time with me in person, you’d know that I’m one of the most patient, tolerant and low-key people you’ll ever meet. But this legal stuff has just pushed me. Really just pushed me to the edge.
It’s just so not me to live like that.
This artwork falling message reminded me of a conversation I had with Jake:
About a month ago, Jake and I were in the car talking about something that happened to him at school. He was telling me a story about how this person got this and then his partner got that and he was stuck getting into trouble. The whole thing just didn’t go his way. It was a “life isn’t fair” moment.
I carefully thought how I was going to reply to him. If that story was true, then yeah, it certainly wasn’t fair to Jake. But I wasn’t there to really see what happened so I dug deep in my mommy brain to come up with a response.
“Well, Jake,” I said. “You can’t always get what you want.” The minute those words came out of my mouth I knew I had to finish it like Mick. “But if you try sometimes, you just might find, you get what you need.”
Jake nodded back at me in agreement. He couldn’t argue with words of wisdom from the Rolling Stones.
And that’s where I am right now. I’m accepting the fact that everything is not going to make perfect sense. I’m not going to get everything I want but if I try sometimes, I just might find, I’ll get what I need.