I had a chance to have some reflection time last week. I took a day off last Friday and went to my father’s beach house to meet with my mastermind group to review our writing project (can’t wait until I get to share this with you all!). We decided to move our usual meeting to the beach so we could have some privacy and hopefully get some inspiration from being so close to the ocean. That’s one of the benefits of living in Florida – you get to drop everything for the day and be at the beach in less then an hour.
A conversation came up about how to keep writing when your Type A personality is fighting against the creative side of your brain. We went back and forth on some solutions and found ourselves coming back to the idea of ‘finding that balance’ between the two. And there it was again, that word balance coming back into my head. Balance … the reason that I started this blog to begin with – my never ending Quest for Balance.
Everyone left to go home and Ben came over to spend the rest of the weekend with me. We planned for a low key relaxing weekend so I forced myself to unplug by leaving my laptop at home. All I had with me was my writing folder and my little book that I’ve started carrying around to take notes when I get ideas for blog posts. I actually went into the weekend with a plan that I would come out with at least 3 blog posts and several topic ideas.
I’m proud to say that my little book is off to a good start but I also came up with this post that I hadn’t even thought about. My mastermind group’s conversation about balance led into a deep discussion with Ben about my personality, the changes that I’ve made over the past couple of years and the direction that I’m heading towards.
For those of you don’t know me as well as others, I have a slight touch of OCD. Alright, some days it’s worst then others. I admit that its a control thing (something I’ll touch on in another post) and my OCD makes me beyond just being organized. I actually used the word ‘methodical’ that weekend to describe how I handle things in my life. There are days when it gets exhausting trying so hard to keep things so orderly and during those times, I’ve just learned that I need to let things go.
But this blog, my business blog (yes, I actually write TWO blogs every month!) and all my other writing projects have become these wonderful creative outlets for me to move past that systematic life that I’ve pulled together. I’m enjoying this writing so much that I’ve made it my theme for this year. It feels so good to write that I block off time during my busy work schedule to spend time in the blogging world. I feel like its pushing me to greater heights personally as well as professionally.
Its like the creative is a train and the methodical is the force that continues to push the train through the tunnel. I’ve been saying this expression lately, “I can see the light at the end of the tunnel and its not because there’s a train coming at me.” While this was a financial analogy I was using, maybe I should start saying that I am the light AND the train coming through the tunnel.
The struggle to find balance is more then just finding time to be with Jake, meet my deadlines and figure out when I’m going to finally wash that basket of towels that have been sitting on the washer since last Friday. To continue my Quest for Balance, I would have to work through the struggle between the methodical Penney and the creative Penney. And I can’t be one or the other, they both need each other for me to exist and keep moving forward.
Now comes the fun part … how to make sure that they can learn to co-exist? Hey — I don’t have all the answers! I figure at this point, wasn’t it enough that I came up with this much? Besides by the time I figured out the train analogy, too many adult beverages had been consumed and the rest of the night was just a blur.
Sometimes the struggle to find balance occasionally needs a few Red Stripes to help you find some answers.
If you have some thoughts or feedback on my struggle or your own, please share in the comments.
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